Maybe with a few words
I could make sense of what happened fifteen years ago
Maybe in a three hundred page book
I could make sense of what happened fifteen years ago.
Maybe a small pond would hold the tears I have shed
Maybe the ocean wouldn’t be big enough.
Maybe if my heart was bigger and stronger
It would not have felt broken for so long
Maybe if my heart was just the size it was but more resilient
I would have had room enough for my sorrow.
Maybe if my mind was cleared of the all the books I had read
I would have had room to make sense of what happened.
Maybe if my mind was filled with the knowledge of how to deal with grief
I would have been able to heal myself and those I love.
Maybe if I was a super human being
I still would be
Forever changed
Forever keeping pictures frozen in time
Forever holding on to losing this child.
Maybe forever isn’t long enough for grief to go away.
– Dr. Sandy Wolkoff